“Sometimes that means I stop what I’m doing and eat from the word of God. Otherwise I walk around spiritually anemic, wondering why I’m so cranky and angry without an ounce of perspective. “Oh yes, I’ve forgotten to eat. No wonder I’m thinking and talking and acting like a crazy person.”” – Marion Vischer (How To Receive Your Own Summer Life)
Okay, I have to confess. To confess I haven’t been in God’s Word on my own nearly as much as I should be lately (translate this to “hardly at all!”). Oh, I read Christian devotionals, Christian non-fiction, Christian blog posts, and even Christian fiction (and listen to a lot of good Christian music). But I am not really reading the Bible itself much right now.
That is really hard to write down and put out there for others to see and judge. But when I read Marion’s quote about being spiritually anemic it cut me to the quick. Her quote came within a list of ways she chooses to fight back against how her daily life, “with all of its brokenness, lack, fear, and questions,” robs her of contentment in Christ (How to Receive Your Own Summer Life).
Lots of things in that list were good to remember to do but none caught my attention like the one at the top of this post. Probably because this is something I’ve slowly been recognizing about myself in the last little while and yet have also been pushing these thoughts back down at the same time. Denial is never a good thing. But it is a hard way to see myself – as a spiritually anemic and cranky Christian who is hungry for God’s Word!
Yet, the Bible itself even uses food references to relate to Scripture when it says, “Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him” (Psalm 34:8) and “How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!” (Psalm 119:103).
This makes me think of a book I read awhile back called, Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, not Food, by Lysa Terkeurst. One thing it said was this, “Yes, we were made to crave – long for,want greatly, desire eagerly and beg for – God. Only God. But Satan wants to do everything possible to replace our craving for God with something else.”
So all I am only truly “made to crave” is God and His Word in my life. If I look to satisfy this desire in other places they ultimately won’t fulfill me. Even those other good “Christian” areas I have been turning to in my life lately. These things can’t fill up the place that only God’s Word was made to fill.
I think I first realized this issue for myself when I actually did sit down and read a section from the Gospels recently. Afterwards I thought how refreshing it was and how I needed more of it in my life. This shows how I am truly “craving” God’s Word because finally sitting down to read the Bible was like a drink of fresh, cool water to my soul.
Therefore, it isn’t enough to simply hear from other people about ways to eat properly, to look at pictures of healthy food, to pour over foodie magazines or to even write articles for them myself. No, simply doing all these things without actually ingesting real food myself will leave me very, very hungry. So it is with not taking time to truly “eat God’s Word” for myself!
Lesson learned. Jesus himself said, “…it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. For the bread of God is the bread that comes down from heaven and gives life to the world” (John 6:32-33). I so want to have this kind of bread, this kind of life in me again.
Lord, help me to take this food analogy to heart as it relates to my being in Your Word. Let me not be discouraged as I have to once again take time to create good spiritual “eating” habits. Help me not just pick and choose the spiritual food I want to ingest but instead have a well-rounded diet in this area as well. Give me once again a hunger (a true hunger) for what you have to show me through Your written Word.
**I’m linking up with Holley Gerth’s Coffee For Your Heart today. Click on the image below to find other great posts in the linkup too**