Day 15: “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” (Gal 2:20)
After my year at Capernwray Harbour Bible School, I spent the next summer as a camp counselor at His Hill Ranch Camp located near Comfort, Texas. I found out about this camp because it was also run by a Torchbearer Bible School which my friend had attended the year before. Our camp t-shirt for the year had part of Galatians 2:20 written on it in Greek: “I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.” Wearing this shirt around and having to translate it for curious people asking about its meaning really burned this verse into my brain!
However, the constant reminder of this verse on my t-shirt that summer almost began to make it lose its significance to me. It was as if I heard it so often that I began to take for granted the truth behind it. I don’t think it was until later that I really began to understand what it meant for me personally. But on the other hand, I am not sorry because this is now one of the few Bible verses where I can readily quote the verse and also its reference.
This verse embodies some of what I learned very early on in my faith journey. It reminds me of my understanding at age nineteen that I needed to make Jesus the Savior and Lord of my life. The realization that, while I had accepted Jesus as my Savior at a young age, I had never fully given Him complete control as the Lord over my life.
I can recall that very night in my bedroom when I said something like; “Jesus, I’ve tried to live life on my own terms and made a mess of it. I now give you control over the areas of my life I have been holding back from you. Please come in and truly be LORD of my life.” Though things didn’t change overnight, the initial sense of peace and release I felt after my plea that night was overwhelming. Was this my “crucifixion of self” moment that Gal 2:20 talks about? I’m not sure but I do know that from that point forward, my relationship with Christ and how I lived out my faith truly began to change and deepen.
Sometimes I still go back even now to this life-changing moment, especially when I feel my sense of peace has begun to fade. That is usually an indicator for me that I have taken over control of a certain area of my life again and need to give it back to God. It is so easy to slip back into the trap of independence and individualism our human nature seems to crave. This is why I also like Luke 9:23 which talks about the idea of taking up our cross daily to follow Christ. It may be a constant struggle to live out my Christian life here on this earth but, thanks be to God, I don’t have to go it alone!
“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” (Gal 2:20)