Day 30: ” Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.” (Rom 12:1)
This verse came to my attention just this summer and helped me see that my writing can be an act of worship to God. Wow – talk about me starting to think outside the box in regards to what worship looks like! I realized that it is a sacrifice for me to devote time and energy to my writing. And that it is also a sacrifice of my privacy and my personal thoughts to put them up on the altar of public opinion. But also to understand that God has given me a gift and I need to offer it back up to Him to use how He wishes. This was truly an “Ah-ha” moment for me and I began to see that my writing could become a fulfillment of God’s calling in my life.
For many years I was only journaling my thoughts down for my own benefit – often too scared to share these with anyone else. When I did share something I was always so worried about what that person thought or how they took it. And sometimes it wasn’t received or appreciated in the way I wanted or expected. This would usually set me back and cause me to curl up protectively around my writing even more, being less likely to put myself out there the next time.
It was just a few months ago, through a rather interesting series of circumstances, that I stumbled upon a blog from the website called (In)courage: Home for the Hearts of Women. This blog has over 40 contributors and therefore has at least one new post each day. “Every day they take turns pulling up a chair to share their stories of what Jesus looks like in their every day, gloriously ordinary, and often messy lives.” I can’t begin to tell you the world that started to open up to me as I was encouraged by the daily posts that appeared in my inbox each morning.
Not too long after I subscribed to this blog, I was struck with the thought; “I could do that. I have similar things I write in my personal journal that I could share with others.” This thought scared me quite a bit as I realized what following through with it would actually entail. And then, with God tugging at my heart, I slowly came around to the idea that the next step (or was it the first step?!) for me as a writer was to start a blog of my own.
I got both excited and nervous at the same time. Excited to be finally starting a journey that had literally been years in the making. And nervous to think that I would have to open up and share parts of me with the world that I usually kept locked away. Excited to take this next step into God’s story for my life, even though I didn’t know where it all might lead. And nervous that through it all I might fall back into the trap of letting other’s opinions and expectations shape my life.
Recently, I was reminded of a list called My Basic Human Rights from the book Speaking the Truth in Love: How to be an Assertive Christian by Ruth N. Koch and Kenneth Haugk. A couple of rights that really apply to this situation are these:
- Each person has the right to own and express his or her feelings.
- Each person has the right to maintain a separate self that is accountable to God and independent of the expectations, the approval or the influence of others.
So good to hear such truth again. And as I continue to worship God through my writing, in whatever form that may take, may I remember that this is my sacrifice to Him and Him alone.
” Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.” (Rom 12:1)