Pursuing Our Desires

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“And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart. And I will put my Spirit in you so that you will follow my decrees and be careful to obey my regulations.” (Ezekiel 36:26-27)

Sometimes in the midst of pursuing my dreams I begin to feel like I am being too selfish, too self-serving in it all. Do you ever feel this way? Nothing seems to shut me down quicker than these types of feelings.

Which was why I was so relieved to read the following quote in Emily Freeman’s book, A Million Little Ways.  I think after seeing it something within me just let out a big sigh and released some pressure I hadn’t known was building up inside:

 “Pursuing desire is only toxic when we demand our desires be satisfied on our terms and in our timing. As recipients of the new heart of the Spirit, our deepest desire, when honestly realized, will always lead us to God.”

Yet, I already know about the ideas found in this quote. In fact, I wrote an entire post based on the concept of our desires mirroring God’s desires as we seek after Him (see Psalm 37:4). In it, I even used a quote from the book, Kisses from Katie“This is not a life that I dreamed up on my own or even knew I desired. I am watching God work, and as I “delight myself in the Lord” by doing what He asks of me and by saying yes to the needs He places in front of me, He is changing the desires of my heart and aligning them with the desires of His.”

So why is it this line from A Million Little Ways grabbed me the way it did? “As recipients of the new heart of the Spirit, our deepest desire, when honestly realized, will always lead us to God.” I think maybe because I had forgotten the concept that if I am seeking after God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength (Mark 12:30), then my own heart and desires will begin to line up with God’s.

Or maybe it is because I wonder if I’m actually not really running after His kingdom and His righteousness (Matthew 6:33) and so instead my dreams have become too inwardly focused.  Then I recall the mindset that says if you are worried about something you’re not doing right, you probably are closer to doing it than you think.  It is when we become uncaring and apathetic that we really need to careful (I hope this blog post proves I am not these last two things at least!).

Which takes me back to the verses in Ezekiel 36 where it is God doing the work in the people’s hearts and spirits.  Therefore, I can take a deep breath and remember, “It’s not all about me.” Instead, I can simply sit back in confidence that the One who began a good work in my life will carry it out to its completion (Philippians 1:6). In His time and on His terms!

Today I sent off an application to a continuing education program at a local university that could potentially help me realize some long-held desires of delving even further into the writing world. As I wait for an answer over these next couple weeks, I will cling to Emily’s quote because I want all this to help turn me back to my Creator:

 “Pursuing desire is only toxic when we demand our desires be satisfied on our terms and in our timing. As recipients of the new heart of the Spirit, our deepest desire, when honestly realized, will always lead us to God.”

**I’m linking up today with Holley Gerth’s Coffee For Your Heart. Click on the image below to find some other great posts in the linkup**

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