Where’s My White Space?

 

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“Speak to me Lord for Your child is here listening
Speak to me Lord for Your child is here waiting on You” – Rebecca St. James, Speak to Me

Today is Ash Wednesday.  It is only in the last few years I have started celebrating Lent so I never really knew the significance of Ash Wednesday before.  But lately Lent has really helped me to prepare for the Easter season through the denial of something in my life and the addition of something else in its place that is intended to draw me nearer to God.

This year I feel God calling me to surrender my “obsession” with my Google calendar and to add more white space into my life.  I hope and pray this will bring more margin, more blank areas where God can have an opportunity to speak into my busy life.  It is also my hope that I will be more open and available to what He would have me do in that time frame rather than having it already filled it up with my own plans.

This song by Rebecca St. James called Speak to Me comes to mind.  You can listen to it here.  It starts out with these lyrics:

“Speak to me Lord for Your child is here listening
Speak to me Lord for Your child is here waiting on You
Speak to me Lord for Your child is here listening
Speak to me Lord for Your child is here waiting on You

Unveil my eyes, let me see, see You
Unveil my heart, let me know, know You
Father do”

Why do those lyrics tug at my heart-strings and fit so perfectly with what I am trying to get at this Lenten season?  Because in order for Him to speak to me, I have to be listening.  In order to listen well, I have to be waiting for Him to speak.  Therefore, in this period of waiting on God I cannot also be “doing!”

Ah – the doing, the activity, the busyness of life.  This can be such a blessing and a curse for me.  If I have too much free time on my hands, this usually means a lack of time spent with others which tends to make me feel depressed and alone.  While there is nothing inherently wrong with keeping busy, it is when this busyness begins to take over my life and there is no longer any room for resting in God that it becomes an issue.  Such as when I start to feel a panic if I see too much “white space” on my Google calendar and feel the compulsion to fill it up with activity – then I know I have a problem.

I am also reminded here of the story in the Bible about the sisters Mary and Martha where Mary is sitting at the Jesus’ feet and simply listening to what He said.  But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”  “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things,  but few things are needed—or indeed only one.  Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” (see Luke 10:38-42)

So it is in the waiting and the listening in the middle of my white space that I hope to have my eyes and heart unveiled in order to see and know God more in my life.  I’m not sure exactly what this will look like, practically speaking, but I know that as I seek to prepare my heart’s soil, God will show up!

The Women’s Ministry Director at my church sent out a newsletter this week that contained the following quote:  “Jesus is looking for more than leaves in our lives, more than a show of life and activity.  He is looking for blossoms or fruit.  He is the most attentive of gardeners but He does not control the climate and soil condition of our heart.  

  • a climate of gratitude, patience and acceptance

  • the soil of surrender, humility,  and receptivity”

May you also be able to find a way during Lent this year – your own unique way – to create such a climate and a soil for God to be the Master Gardener in your life (see John 15:1-8).

**Today I’m linking up with Holly Gerth’s Coffee for Your Heart.  Click on the image below to find some other posts in the linkup you might like.**

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